Rest for Your Churning Heart

January 2020

Have you ever felt like you were losing your mind? 

When I opened my laptop this morning, my hands refused to type the password. No matter what I tried, I stayed locked out. 

Never mind that this password has flowed from my fingers several times a day for the past few years. When I searched my brain for it, it was nowhere to be found.

What I did find, however, were countless other passwords and thoughts and desires and memories...as well as the haunting taunts of all the tasks I couldn't do until I was able to login to my laptop. 

My mind was churning. And because our minds, bodies, and spirits are so interconnected, when our minds churn, our hearts churn.

I eventually landed on this 4th century prayer from Augustine:

O Thou full of compassion

     I commit and commend myself unto Thee, 

     in whom I am, and live, and know. 

Be Thou the Goal of my pilgrimage, 

     and my Rest by the way

Let my soul take refuge 

     from the crowding turmoil of worldly thoughts

     beneath the shadow of Thy wings; 

let my heart, this sea of restless waves

     find peace in Thee, O God. 

In the Bible, the churning sea and darkness illustrate chaos. The picture painted of the pre-created world in Genesis 1:2? Sea and darkness. Chaos.

Yet the picture the Bible paints of the renewed creation is a world in which there is no darkness and the waters are calm like glass. From start to finish, the Bible is the story of how God is taking the world from a place of chaos to a place of complete rest.

Throughout Jesus's time on earth, He brought advance signs of this renewed world. These signs were sacraments of rest on the journey to complete rest.

What did Jesus do when the churning sea was causing His disciples hearts, minds, and bodies to churn as well? He told the sea to be calm.

If Jesus can calm the churning sea, He - who is full of compassion - can calm our churning hearts. He can cover us the way a hen protects its chicks. 

Even when we are locked out of a situation and are completely helpless to do anything about it. 

Let my heart,this sea of restless waves

     find peace in Thee, O God. 

May your heart find rest in God today.

In Grace and peace, 

Amber